Everyday you have to test yourself. If not, it's a wasted day.

Got this from one of the on-line communities that I’m a member of. It’s supposed to be a line coming from the US Marines Recruitment program. And short and simply logical as it may sound, it rings true. Its not just about always testing one’s self, because as we open our eyes to greet the day, we are shoved right smack into the testing ground automatically. And being mundane, spells nothing but a day’s worth being wasted. Everyday, we should challenge ourselves to break beyond our very own boundaries and barriers. We ourselves are responsible for any upgrades or downgrades for ourselves…period.

“I’m not trying to be a nuisance, I just think we could do better than this.
This is simply my two cents. You can, we can, take it or leave it…”
– Nuisance/John Reuben

A HISTORY LESSON
What Hitler Proved The World

Thinking about it now, I’d like to take Hitler as a veritable subject when it comes to social psychology. I know not the man, nor am I an expert on his background… I just happen to stumble upon lots of facts and figures, seen documentaries, read articles regarding the Man Who set the world in Holocaust. Idealist, outstanding leadership, intelligent, dictator, mass muderer, and so much more. He was a man, who dreamed of being a god. Modeled himself to be a god and promised to make everything wrong– right. Noble deeds. He was a good model though…for all of us to see. Of right becoming wrong.

He was a man of pain and triumph. A one-of-a-kind Cinderella story. A simple jobless man of the streets, who fought hard against the plight, and in the name of the hard-working class. He was a hero. And all in his political victories, people saw him as a sign of hope. A messiah to save everyone, and made right all the wrongs visible during that time. Of course, historically, he never won in any electoral mandate, and it is by chance, fate even, that he had risen into power without being voted for by the people–only trusted. Heavily trusted. He is a fine example of being in the right place at the right time. What Hitler, the man proved to the world, is clearly visible with us, up until this day.

He proved that rags, can turn into riches. The powerless can become powerful. Careful marketing is a must when it comes to planning of conquering the world. Hunger can be beneficial to one's personal agenda. Hopes can be pinned on empty promises. An ordinary ornamental design can turn into one powerful symbol that everybody will respect and fear from– up until today (and basically the coming days). Grand, lavish and exciting variety shows entertains the masses. Of which are perfect, to serve as diversionary tactics to what is really happening behind the curtains. A person need not be a robot to act like one. Experimental procedures are not confined to rats, that it gave an overview in the medical field of what the human body is made of and what it can take. Inhumane as it is, we can get rid of each other just because of imperfection. Funny, when all of us are imperfect entities trying to be perfect. Being user-friendly is a must decorum even during those times. By charm alone, one can convince the world that he/she is good, and never meant any harm. Power, can be used either good or bad…sadly, most of them who do obtain it, chooses the latter, for it is much more personally beneficial. One can still find a companion in, after being taken for granted in a long time. Especially, when everything is lost and already at death’s door. Dreams if not tackled realistically, will always remain unfulfilled. Labels and tags became an essential tool for distinguishing the good, the bad, and those that cannot be defined. It can be good at some ways, but bad when the intention is without understanding. Leadership depends upon the intention of the leader. The intention of a leader always boils down to the intention of the person itself.

And of everything that Hitler proved, it was this: a man can be greater than what he dreamed of to be, as it was his destiny– especially when he could go the lowest of lows of being less than a man.

It was 7:35pm. Philippine time. December 1, 2008.
Visible in the night sky tonight is the planets
Venus and Jupiter, and Earth’s only satellite– the Moon.

The sky is smiling tonight.

Venus, Jupiter, and the Moon

and i was once an astronaut...

Ganito Dati… Ganito Ngayon…

DJ Nicoleyala of Love radio (a local FM station in the Philippines), never fails to amuse my thoughts. As a traveling commuter, and no ipod earphones stuck to my ears, I get to hear lots of things that it picks up. Gotta love all that noise in the streets. Hehehe. Sometimes I get to appreciate what I hear, sometimes I don’t. But that darn disc jockey, made me appreciate the corny-ness of her spiels. Because it’s a sad but true fact, that we hardly took notice of unless it hits us right smack in our eyes. Just like this:

Dati, lahat ng nakikita nating naghahalikan ay magsyota.
Ngayon… hindi lahat ng nakikita nating naghahalikan ay magsyota.

(Before, when we see two people kissing– they are a couple.
Today…when we see two people kissing–not all of them are a couple.)

Dati, maraming makikitang naggagandahang babae.
Ngayon…maraming makikitang magaganda, pero hindi lahat babae.

(Before, we see lots of beautiful women.
Today… we see lots of beauty, but not all of them are women.)

Wala lang. break time joke time.

cuteness can bite

More like the Gremlins hehe cute and deadly like the "toothfairy" in Hellboy II : The Golden Army haha. This cute critters by the way, are the long believed to be gone (extinct) pygmy tarsier in Indonesia. So shocked (i supposed) it bit one of its captors' (scientist) hand.This undated handout photo shows a creature called a pygmy tarsier, believed for the eight decades to have been extinct. One of the world's smallest and rarest primates, it was rediscovered in Indonesia by Texas A and M University professor Sharon Gursky-Doyen in August. (Texas A and M University/Sharon Gursky-Doyen/Handout/Reuters) Courtesy of Yahoo! News

a day with Kapitan Bandila

taken at the Men's Health Urbanathlon 2008 held at UP, Diliman (Philippines). my friends got this chance to meet and greet the famous Kapitan Bandila watching the urban obstacles race competition. he was far out impressed by the way, and congratulated the first placer who clocked in at an unbelievable pace of 33 minutes and 41 seconds. and it was a 10K obstacle run. Being the gagong palaboy that i am, i watched as men, women, teens and kids finished their runs. surprised that yup, no matter what body type you have, old or young, endurance, passion, and patience do count.



hot and cold
to cap this blog off, i end with one of today's slowly emerging young singer/songwriter Katy Perry. for the undecided. "Hot and Cold" by Katy Perry.

newsflash today!

BEGGING FOR MONEY AFTER ALIGHTING A JET PLANE
Well, they're in big, as in BIG, trouble now. There's a huge debate going on at the US Senate as the three big companies of GM (General Motors), Ford Motors, and Chrysler fly to Washington D.C. seeking support for a 25 million dollars loan package.


welcome to corporate America– where the excess is always a beyond the sky's limit.


ULTIMATE MUSCLE MEN USBs
On the lighter side of things, seems like creativity is flourishing when it comes to the product design of USBs– especially built for your tech geeky-ness enjoyment. Plus, these can actually do push-ups if ever you fancy them to do so >:D

Do check them out Ultimate Muscle: The Kinnikuman Legacy
Courtesy of collectionDX

LABELS
Labels are words that we use to identify something and/or someone.
Labels are used to give structure.

A label is a brand.
A label is a name.
A label is an institution.
It is also a group.
An organization.

Labels give a sense of meaning to those that we can’t understand.
Labels erases fear of the unknown.
Labels are sometimes a laughing matter,
Because of its simplicity to operate in big matters
Such as identification and description.

But a label can also be a hindrance.
It can become a means to an end.
It can also instill fear
Create pandemonium and chaos.
A label can become much bigger than its actual carrier.
It can become a barrier
Bigger and deeper than the Barrier Reef.

A label, aside from all its pros and cons
Can actually become a sanctuary.
Where everyone hides
And some would disappear into.
Labeling is man’s capability
to minimize everything into a single word.
It's what we called branding.
Putting tags and claims to acquire property,
A notion to be noticed
To be be important
Apart from everything man deemed unimportant.
Of differentiating bad from good
Even if it means to shove, all the dirt under the rag.


A label.
Little do we know, that a simple word
Can mean a heck lot more than it seems.

Black is the new Red, White, and Blue

courtesy of steve sack from comics.com

I borrowed the title from a close friend of mine. It was her YM status.
(Copyrighted by zyle "the foxymama" galinato in Vietnam)


Personally, I don’t really give a damn about the U.S. Presidential Election 2008. Between, Barack Obama and John McCain, they’re both a draw. Though they would greatly affect the world at large, I can’t really judge them unless they have already worked their ass off. On character, they’re both at their level, though they’re ages apart. Their platforms, well it’s nothing but the usual politician spiels (which by the way remains to be seen). On ideologies, they may differ, as it affects their root persona. But by closely comparing, they’re both the same, but with different tacks on handling things, solving problems, giving sound and definite solutions. Individually, they fought two different battles which showcased their true prowess–one shows his uncannily courageous leadership skills and the other, an underdog.

Just finished lunch when my friend announced that “it’s finished.”
At first I didn’t understand. What the fuck is finished? Did I missed a practically good joke? And then it dawned on me as I was seeing on her monitor the victory party of some sort. Obama wins the 44th U.S.Presidency. Barack Obama won. The underdog of the game. The multi-racial candidate. The youngest presidential candidate ever to have won. The first, black American President. John McCain put up a good fight. He may have conceded, but his honor is intact. And nothing more can be much greater than that.

Congratulations! U.S. President Barack Obama.
And best regards at your new position of being America’s ship captain.

Cardiac Arrest

It has been awhile since i rammed my head on a wall. Realization is such a pain in the ass sometimes. I wanna kill Cupid for he's too troublesome for every human being...but of course, I failed. I believe that the artists and story-tellers made a good job of sculpting what we knew of our world today. And the damn scientists have proven everything these imaginative dreamers came up with. We’re just suckers to believe everything that satisfies our craving of trying to explain everything, or more likely, just bored out of our wits. Just looking for entertainment.

Meeting WALL • E
I never would’ve thought Pixar’s latest flick Wall•E, would be that impressive. I was impressed hands down. Not just that, I love that dirty piece of metal junk cleaner. Hmmm… if I remember correct, the name stands for Waste Allocator Load Lifter – Earth Class. Thus, the name. in shorter terms, it’s the garbage collector. Hahaha imagine all the filth humans has accumulated left our good Mother Earth to just simply be left wasted and forgotten. And the startling sad fact is…its already happening. That future is just a glimpse away. Tsk.Tsk.

The movie started with that sad fact that everything you see on Earth is a waste. Tall buildings that were so familiar in many Hollywood films were reduced to the presence of the towering garbage that the robots have built for how many years. And the silence was deafening. Earth is such a fucking wasteland. Its so grim, that kids as young as four would say loudly for everyone in the cinema to hear “Are those all garbage?” it made me want to tell the kid, “Yup. And one of those garbage happens to be your own crap.” Hehe. Its just so silent, well not that silent that you don’t really hear anything, but the kind of silence that says you are alone. Of course, the only Earth resident at that time is Wall•E who pretty much enjoys working while listening to a very classic musical song. With only its pet cockroach for company, it enjoys the simplicity of life. Until, it came face-to-face with EVE (which Wall•E pronounces as eee-v-ahh). I can’t help but sympathize for Wall•E’s effort to get to know EVE. I mean being alone and all, meeting EVE brought something out of Wall•E. I guess it brought out the palaboy in itself. Hahaha. Something to look forward to and another robot to converse with.

Wall•E’s so cute when he’s shaking because Eve can really be deadly^^ It grew on me. And the fact, that I would really love to kick some numbskull who is so lazy to get up and move their body around, this is my big fucking middle finger to them. “You don’t use them, then you lose them.” I forgot where I heard this line before, but it is pretty much appropriate, to describe the lack of concern of humans in their surroundings. >:D That’s why I love this film. And that, coming from somebody who is skeptic about this particular movie in the first place. Now Wall•E and EVE is towering over me whenever I wake up, because nowadays, they usually hang around my bedside :D

I am an Eagle
(“I believe I can fly…” hehe)

Introduction - The Astrology of Time
The ancient Maya and Aztec astrologers studied the mysterious influence of the rhythms of the sky on earthly life. Everyone knows the Sun rises and sets every day -- this is the basic rhythm of life around which we set our clocks and calendars. What the ancient astrologers discovered was that other time cycles existed that were multiples of this basic day cycle. This fact was discovered about 100 years ago in Europe and these cycles (there are many of them) are now called biorhythms.

The most important time cycles in ancient Mayan and Aztec astrology are those of the day, 9-days, 13-days, and 20-days. Additionally, years are counted also, in groups of 4 and 13. Each day is then part of several other cycles, so no two days are exactly the same. Keep in mind that our personalities are complex and contain many contradictions. All of us present a different "face" depending on who we meet. The delineations below will reflect this, but they will also give you a clear picture of who you really are. The true value of astrology lies in self-knowledge, the first step to wisdom.

those on-line tests are a real fascination for me. there are no girls (even guys) that I know who didn’t took one of those darn foolish tests whenever they come across one. it is already (somewhat) a given notion that girls love to try these out…you know? out of curiosity and fun. hehe. Well so much so, that it surprises me that guys would do as well (pointers about girls, they say). okay, enough of the intro. I just answered one. a bit more on the astrological, psychological…albeit, scientific and historical way of knowing one’s self. the Mayan-Aztec astrology. what the hell. just for fun. based on experience, some of the results can really boggle one’s head as to how come truth can slap you in the face, hard. And I’ll just gonna go through the points. It may be wrong or right. I may be just a bit beyond being gullible, hallucinatory, stupid, and just plain bored out of my head.

You are Eagle Eagle: You like to be a free spirit. You would probably just take-off for parts unknown but you usually have some complex relationship issues to deal with, so you don’t. But you like time alone. You have your own set of rules in life that has developed from your own unique perspective on things and you tend to take an experimental approach to many areas of your life. At worst, you can become too self-involved. At best, you are a person who pioneers changes and furthers new developments in the social world.

this is real creepy. Hahahaha maybe because of the fact that i am a crab. born in the sign of cancer according to the horrorscopes…oops! horoscopes :D and yes. i am a gagong palaboy. a professional wandering unintentional bastard. i wish I could change the social world, but then it would be wishful thinking because as people, we are such hard-headed creatures to begin with. hehe God would’ve been taking tons of stress tabs, i bet. i second the mention on my worst though. true. but I realized, that as humans…we were built to further any upgrade or downgrade that we may wish to have for self-improvement. that is, if we realize it before the expiration period runs after each one of us.

Besides…it doesn’t sound too bad to be an eagle in the Mayan-Aztec astronomical order. Just a piece of knowledge for human brain consumption. damn those Happy peanuts and mixed liquors.

dead batt.

Three weeks.
It wasn’t like being in a Hell Week all over again. Rather, it’s more of draining all the power after all the tasks at hand were done. I am literally having a case of being dead batt. I’m finding it cool at the moment. Oh the perpetual vision that I have of doing–nothing. Wahahahaha. Oooooh... and I’m loving it. Back to old school hip-hop with Masta Plann. All those rhyming and cool disc scratching plus easy to sing along chorus makes me remember the times when I’m not always staring face-to-face with a computer monitor.

Three weeks.

And it made me remember that I can be both superhuman and subhuman all at the same time. That 24 hours is not enough. So much so that it doesn’t seem to matter anymore, just the deadline. I’ve turned into a schizo in no time. Balancing two…rather…four personas without running into each other is but a feat well achieved. A respect not well earned. Oh well. Just sacrificed somethings to accomodate all the tasks i have on my plate (however disgruntled i am, i hope it was worth it), not being able to sleep (come on! I have to clean these things…that’s what I was being paid to do. just don't fucking tell me that i didn't do the task at hand. that's too much of a low blow-below-the-belt cowardice), and having nightmares when I’m fuckingly wide awake. haaay anything just to earn a living. haha good thing friends around keep the gagong palaboy in check. oh by the way, that printing proof that you sent was a disaster. huh?whatthefuck...how many logo designs do they want?... what?again. i didn't quite catch what you're driving at...how in the world could you make a snowflake –artfully done?!... make the voice over glossy?!... so they like the red and the purple, they also want it shimmering, glimmering and glossy talent?... i believe when they say they wanted comic sans, they are pertaining to any handwritten type fonts...do they want to delete it or do they wanted to change it then bring it back again after being deleted?... a brave new word for "revision" is termed as "amendment".

Thank goodness, my brain cells (which is by the way just gotten out of the rut meeting The Wall along the way, which hinders my productivity to a mere definite zero) didn’t conked out of me. Whew! At least, Naughty By Nature, The Beastie Boys and Francis Magalona kept me in check.


You’ve got to fight for your right to paaaaaaaaarrrr….tey!

Another Busy Weekend


September is almost ending. I was geared up for the weekend becoming a literal weekend warrior as Friday turned to Saturday. I was useless the whole day (Friday) because of a hangover from a night out with friends to answer our weeklong craving for a beer. And it was a toss up when a friend of mine (from another batch) was confirming me to be available for a tv show shoot early Saturday. Ergo, I would have to tuck in to bed and get up early. It was a fun day Saturday. I’m back at the training grounds again. Feeling how my body would react especially my rehabilitating limb from the activity that I sorely miss because of my injury. And it was okay. Not okay just like before. Just okay, fine, I’m managing. Damn it. Here comes fear again. This time around I need to push harder. Fear instilled itself on my freaking body. I’m so eager to break him off from me. Hehe. Plus, I hang around with the guys again. I miss them really. It was fun to know that there are newbies in the group and that our troop is getting bigger :D we’ve got a handful of talented students. And a friend of mine manages to drop on by and join us^^ Yes! now, I’m not the only female in the group. Though we have other two who were not actively participating yet because of some other stuff. Yey! Now, my friend wants to join. By the way, she’s good. She could do pull ups better than I do. (okay, I can’t do pull ups really haha). And the shoot was cool. Aside from sitting side by side with a good-looking show host, our group is actually being featured in a show launching vehicle come Monday. (ooh I can’t wait. I made a booboo I think.) I was the group’s camera person that day. I don’t mind though because of my injury rehab. And my friend is really panicking with me lugging his camera while I jump and run around with them. Hahahaha I took cool hanging in the air motion shots. It was fun. we ended around 4pm. I have to rush immediately to a printing shop so I can ready all the equipments and materials I will use for my personal projects nearing its deadline. Good thing, it fell on a Tuesday. The good part is miscalculating my calendar. So I am one day ahead of the deadlines. Officially, it’s a Monday now. The whole Sunday was dedicated to my unfinished personal projects. And when I did get my sleep, I woke up with a clear head showing me reels of what I’ll be doing once I’m in the zone. Hehe. a couple of logo design ideas were popping up. But I don’t know as to what they’re for. I’ll deal with them some other time. I have to revise the writing project that I have. Not that I aim for it to be super duper Nobel-Prize award winning literary piece. I just want it to be uhm…a better-told story. Or something that my English teachers back in highschool would mark it in lieu of how the story would be told OR anyone would be able to understand what I’m babbling about. I am not a writer. I just love writing. I aim to improve my communication skills in writing, which I put on the sidelines to give way to talking visually. Now it’s done. Here comes the bigger project that I need to finish because I’ll be personally delivering it early morning. A mag cover and an exhibit piece is enough to keep me occupied. I encountered The Wall along the way, which rendered my concept forming capabilities null. But good thing I had an idea formed already, its just the works that’s bothering me. Thank God the submission deadline was extended til the end of the month. I was already moving along thinking everything is lost, but hope comes tugging me back for a moment.^^ ooh I love looking at myself smeared with and playing with paints hahaha I’m not to be bothered til my project’s finish. I miss doing this concept and mixing modern and traditional way of making a piece. Though it does look like a student work, I’m still happy as I applied the finishing touches. :D and for the last project, again, it’s a literary piece. I just want to enter something that I have done from the past, because it fell right smack on a theme. Just for the fun of submitting. Maybe some would see its worth or something. It’s just so tiring to read my own stuff when I can impart something (I wish) to others. Maybe they can make sense of it more than it made sense to me. So there. A busy but fun weekend.

Stop and Stare

she gazed into his eyes
and found nothing but anger and shame
of times long forgotten;
of skin touching skin;
breath taking in breath;
body and soul intertwining in the dark;
silent echoes of thoughts unspoken.

she believes in magic.
he believes in the parody of the world
being thrown around.
she stared at him
like nothing else matters;
he stared in her eyes
looking for a tear to fall,
but found none.

there it was
pounding against their bare and withered chests;

"hold me.
hold me tight."
said she.

"kiss me.
kiss me goodnight."
said he.

but their lips didn't dare move.
and their hands never touched.
they're inches apart;
years beyond the stars.

he gazed into her eyes
and found nothing but anger and shame
of times long forgotten;
of skin touching skin;
breath taking in breath;
body and soul intertwining in the dark;
silent echoes of thoughts never spoken.
until the magic and the parody fades away
and left with nothing but a silent wish
whispered in the dead air of the night.

palaboy newsmakers

another one ALMOST bites the dust
the hazards of working is when we cross paths with Fate.

as Don McLean aptly put it in the song American Pie "...They caught the last train for the coast / The day the music died." well most artists of the music industry were epitomized by plane crashes other than the usual car crashes, drugs and other stuff. just recently, the drummer of blink 182 (who declared themselves in hiatus) Travis Barker, got himself involved in a plane crash. see Yahoo!'s Stop the Presses about the news that almost ALMOST cut the drumming beats of one of today's most sought after drummer.




proving the Big Bang Theory
well, aside from the fact that it was now shutdown, to be re-scheduled to operate in the year 2009, the Large Hadron Collider (LHC) has made the news headline last month. Triumphed scientists, angered people (especially the most hardworking individuals), criticized by heck lot of people around the world for their seemingly lack of importance when it comes to solving world problems but can afford to build a machine that would just crush a couple of molecules or end the days of the world in an instant. According to Wikipedia: The LHC was built by the European Organization for Nuclear Research (CERN), and lies underneath the Franco-Swiss border between the Jura Mountains near Geneva, Switzerland (Tintin Adventures!!!!haha). It is funded by and built in collaboration with over eight thousand physicists from over eighty-five countries as well as hundreds of universities and laboratories. The LHC circulated the first particle beams on 10 September 2008, but a few days later had to suspend operations due to equipment failure. Owing to the already planned winter shutdown, the collider will not be operational again until the spring of 2009.

Many have contested as to why in the world we have to build this thing (because it cost a lot... A LOT) just to prove if the big bang theory is true or not. scientifically, i believe that it would benefit our knowledge of the world that we live in. ON THE OTHER HAND, why not just build something that would benefit the humankind...like a cure for AIDS, hunger, health issues concerns. how about addressing the immediate problems first? y'know, those kind of stuff that nobody dared to answer unless their own lives were on the line. oh well, that's just my point of view.



something from Libre

"Because no one has the right to deny another their life, eventhough they disagree with it, because everyone has the right to live the life they so desire if it doesn't harm another and because discrimination has no place in America, my vote will be for equality and against Proposition 8" -Brad Pitt

actually, i read this bit of showbiz chika about two days ago. it made me admire Brad Pitt even more hahaha (of course with a notable inclusion of his partner Mrs. Smith a.k.a Angelina Jolie). He donated $100,000 in support of gay marriage in Los Angeles, when it became legal back in June.

Proposition 8 is an initiative measure on the 2008 California General Election Ballot. If passed it would amend the California Constitution with a new section that would read "only marriage between a man and a woman is valid or recognized in California." The measure, as submitted for the ballot by petitioners, is called the "California Marriage Protection Act." The ballot title, as prepared by the Attorney General Jerry Brown is "Eliminates Right of Same-sex Couples to Marry." - Wikipedia

artfully done

this wasn't in the papers nor in any internet news sites, web page, and what-have-yous. the problem with communication is trying to figure out what other people mean by what they are saying. even though, we're all speaking the same language (technical or otherwise) miscommunication is something of a hurdle that we have to contend with from each other. especially if it was used without even knowing what it means.

yeah. yeah. i'm always guilty of that too. because sometimes i use words in my own definition of it. so, yes, that's why i at most wanted to explain what i mean about what the fuck am i saying. my bluntness causes me too much. but okay, this one is the epitome of all the phrases that i have come across. I AM NOT GOOD AT PHRASES. but this one stumped me big time. hahaha artfully done means in good taste. well thats me if i were to put it in layman's term. but i encountered this in a revision of which i could not comprehend if i will take it as an insult or just a problem that needs to be addressed. and i do take constructive criticism because it helps in one way or another. the story: in the JO (job order) i have to revised a compre flyer that features a snowflake/s. well to make the flyer look "elegant" as what they wanted... minimal design elements is a way to go (rather than clutter it with too much design elements that by the way, has a big family photo in it as a main visual) – thus, snowflakes. and it came back with this: the snowflake design is approved. but make it look artfully done. after i finish reading this, i was like HUH? WHA? (eyes bulging with mouth wide open smiley here). and my head was lost in space. how in the world would i make it look "artfully done"? color is out. we've tried that before and it sucks big time. too much snowflake loses the elegance that they so wanted. lesser and it would bomb right out. so what do they mean? arrange it in a single file? or do i have to draw eyes and mouth on it? do i have to make it fly, dance? or what?

a day later it came back with the same revision but this time they made it clearer. what they mean about "artfully done" is make more snowflakes. my God! so okay, i made a snowstorm of snowflake just to appease their minds.

hehe

my pirate name

Your Pirate Name Is...

Iron Left Eye Lisa

What's Your Pirate Name?

Your Pirate Name Is...

Iron Blood And Guts

What's Your Pirate Name?

so in a way, i am Iron Left Eye Lisa Iron Blood and Guts :D
harharharhar mateys! man the ships and let's pillage the bar for some rhum

i still love my first names though: Cannibal Beard of Maggots Evil Dagger
it sounds devilishly interesting hehehe

the tale of the scatter brain

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i am standing in the center of the park (well sorta) facing a big blank concrete wall. it is huge. lying around me (forming a circle) are scattered bits and pieces of things: memories, fancy stuffs, memorabilias, scratch papers, notes, table napkins, toys, pictures, dvds and compact discs, broken casette tapes, peeled off posters and stickers...you know...stuffs. some are trash. some are useful. while some, makes up for feeding the appetite of fascination. and there are some that electrocute me in shock 'til i cried and beg for it to stop (letting go of those things that do so, is so easy...and then i kinda miss how it feels and so i go and pick it up again hehehe).

all of these scattered bits and pieces are the contents of my brain.
i suppose.
and i'm staring at the blank wall. looking for an answer to a puzzle that i can't seem to put together. trying to come up with one singular question to sum up all of these disjointed things laying around me. hoping. guessing. trying things out. i wanted to climb the wall. walk around it. but i know i can't. not at this very moment.

the wall is cold. i have to understand it. its silence. its being a wall.


The heart may freeze or it can burn. The pain will ease if I can learn... there is no future. There is no past. I live this moment as my last! There's only us... there's only this. Forget regret, or life is yours to miss. No other road... no other way. No day but today...
-Rent

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this is where i stop from drifting for awhile.
now it's time to sort things out...

the world's most dangerous road

if you're a driver would you dare to test your skills here?













looks fun right?... harmless. just a piece of road. i mean, we had that kind of zigzagging twisting road here in the Philippines. go to Baguio and try it out. but then again...this is NOT Baguio see for yourself ...











especially if you're the passenger makes you want to think twice hehehe

this is Bolivia's Road of Death. hands down the most dangerous road in the world. It runs in the Bolivian Andes, 70 km from La Paz to Coroico, and plunges down almost 3,600 meters in an orgy of extremely narrow hairpin curves and 800-meter abyss near-misses. A fatal accident happens there every couple of weeks, 100-200 people perish there every year. In 1995 the Inter-American Development Bank named the La Paz-to-Coroico route "the world's most dangerous road."

the buses and heavy trucks navigate this road, as this is the only route available in the area. Buses crowded with locals go in any weather, and try to beat the incoming traffic to the curves. It also does not help that the fog and vapors rise up from the heavily vegetated valley below, resulting in almost constant fogs and limited visibility. Plus the tropical downpours cause parts of the road to slide down the mountain. and if ever you fall down chances are this is more of an abyss than a mountainside. who knows... how many days before you ever reached the bottom of the rain forest below. or if ever you will be found. lots of wreckage, trucks, and visible reminders can be seen here (as i've read...).


the world's most dangerous hiking trail
now if there's the most dangerous road, this time around i'll let you take a peak at the most dangerous hiking trail in the world: Xian (Mt.Huashan)...






















actually, the pictures in itself are a bit discomforting. chains, padlocks, holes on the mountain side, planks hanging on the side of the muntain in a very dizzying height is really gonna make you a bit whoozy. and this is a very tourist heavy traffic area. with no safeguards and safety nets to catch you if ever you fall down.



source: darkroastedblend

unintentionally watching:

a movie review chapter 1

as the month of June rolls in...so is the first batch of movie festivals. first stop...the French Film Festival! bonjour :D for clarifications i've managed to catch only two (2) movies so far in the French Film Festival held at the Shangri-La mall in Mandaluyong City. Just been quite a busy bee because i've relocated offices once again. AND i got myself injured. nothing to do with work though. i'm at play when i sprained my ankle. which is really bad for my career as a freerunner hehe anyway, back to the movies... i happen to catch "Ah! Si j'étais riche" (If I Were A Rich Man) at the last minute.

it was a plan of whatever movie-we-happen-to-come-across-during-that-time thing. (snicker) and whoever it is available is pretty much welcome to accompany us in this last minute movie trip (we're spontaneous people you see hehe). it's also the second to the last day 'til the festival officially ends. it's also raining so damn hard. and i'm injured. but i wanted to see it before it ends. and a friend of mine is also so eager to watch as well with the same reason(s). Only, she arrived half an hour late and miss such a good film to watch. this film is nothing but the good ol' French dramacomedy. witty lines. simple story but beautifully told in an unobscure and weird kind of way.

The plot: Aldo Bonnard (played by Jean-Pierre Darroussin) is about to divorce his wife Alice (Valeria Bruni Tedeschi) while his new boss, Gérard (Richard Berry), is a hypocritical man. Worse, he discovers that his wife has an affair with his boss. But one day, he wins a lottery of 10 million euros. He decides to leave his job and not to reveal the news to his wife until the day of the divorce.

it was more close to the heart of everyone. it's bright, witty, funny, charming, cynical, critical and surprising. it'll make you cry what with the emotional pain the characters have to go through only to smile at the same time. more like laughing with tears hehe it was really a pain in the ass but cute.

the second movie that we happen to catch (yes, its a "we" thing already...), is a very heavy drama set on the continents of canada and europe dealing with the rock and roll lifestyle—"Clean". starring Nick Nolte and Maggie Cheung. well, Nick really looked as if he had enough of being Hulk's father. he had aged. not clearly the Nick Nolte i remembered when i was a kid. Maggie on the other hand looked pretty much like Yoko Ono. but then that is just me. on to the story: a rockstar getting killed because of drug overdose and the blame was pointed at the wife, who was also a druggie and a controlling freak of a manager to her husband's career. they wanted her clean---free of drugs that is. she wanted her son back. the son that she left to chase her and her husband's rockstar dream. but she has to come clean. can she? would she be able to face her son after leaving him to grow up in the care of her husband's parents? would her son accept her as his mother? questions about responsibility, forgiveness, of turning a new leaf, of love, motherhood, and of being a woman. heavy drama, i tell you. good but pretty heavy. so heavy that we watched "Get SMART" afterwards :D


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we interrupt this program for a few short reminders:

BABY BLUES









Romeo & Don Quixote: Don Q being a man of honor, respected his lady Dulcinea's decision. "Don't ever make her cry." said the Don. "For i'll come charging on my trusted steed Rocinante, from afar, just to cut your head off with the blade of my strong and noble sword, if Dulcinea's tear would drop and graze her immaculate cheeks."

Romeo thus pledged his integrity over those words. "I'll see to it that i'll never cause a tear from her eyes to fall. Your lady Dulcinea. My Juliet."

Of the many leagues and of many adventures waiting to be told, news reached Don Q. He was saddened by the tragedy that came upon the beautiful love story of Romeo and Juliet. He has nothing but utmost honor and respect for Romeo. The pledge that he(Romeo) uttered that daylight before they part – he did in flying colors.

And all he could mutter is: "Romeo cried."


Now this story was never told in writing or in any spoken language–until today. Where leagues of countless missions, travels, and battles in the olden days of yore, that there came a time when the paths of Don Quixote and Romeo have crossed. From across the desert where Romeo resides as he escapes from his inevitable fate to where the comical noble knight Don Quixote was on a quest for an adventure. Though there are many differences of background, reasons and objectives...they are both outlaws of the wild desert. Don Q (for short), wandered away for awhile from Sancho (his*ehem* squire). Forming an alliance among the shades of each other's shadows in the burning heat of the sun, they journeyed on to a blind man's path to get out of the endless sand, sand dunes and sandstorms. Until they arrived on a town of which name I do not want to remember.


THE RUT bigeyedeer.wordpress.com
















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Back once again! This time i'll be crossing continents (and dreaming), that i'm roaming around the famous Hollywood back lots in LA.

First in review will be the comedy film Get Smart which stars Steve Carell (40 year old Virgin, Evan Almighty), Anne Hathaway (Princess Diaries) and Dwayne "The Rock" Johnson (The Mummy Returns, Scorpion King).It is a 2008 film adaptation of Mel Brooks (Robin Hood: Men In Thighs) and Buck Henry's 1960s spy parody television series in the US. This is a very old school slapstick comedy kind of movie. very witty and funny. especially, when you've come from watching a movie with a huge dose of heavy drama. hehehe. hey and Bill Murray was there (still reminds me of The Ghostbusters whenever i see him^^). Bungling secret agent Maxwell Smart, also known as Agent 86 for CONTROL, is on a mission to battle the forces of their evil crime nemesis known as KAOS with his more-competent partner Agent 99, (whose real name is never revealed) at his side. When the headquarters of U.S. spy agency Control is attacked and the identities of its agents compromised, the Chief has no choice but to promote his ever-eager analyst Maxwell Smart, who has always dreams of working in the field alongside stalwart superstar Agent 23. Smart will do whatever it takes to thwart the latest plot for world domination by KAOS. (courtesy of imdb.com)

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and then there's WANTED which stars Angelina Jolie, James McAvoy, and Morgan Freeman. directed by Timur Bekmambetov. of which i've already dedicated a blog space a month back. need i say more? hehe wicked! one of the best movies this year^^


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from Europe to the US...we come right back across Asia with the Japanese Film Festival! \m/ i've only watched one rocking film from this film fest, but its worth it! yeah, after braving the rain, automobile traffic, long walk, work related stress, people bustling up and about, and the long line at the cinema entrance (which spans into two floors) – it's really worth the time spent seeing this film Linda! Linda! Linda!

it was some sort of a break from my infamous you tube and dvd watching activities. and i was really surprised that many came to see the film that shouts a girl's name in all its glory. and most were teenagers. which by the way, is also due to the fact that it was a free admission event hehe. in summary, Linda! Linda! Linda! is a movie about a teenage all-girls band in a Japanese school which has a Korean lead vocalist. Which is in fact, the general theme of the festival: the Japanese-Korean relationship. A very girl bonding-friendship-music movie. Not the usual girl bonding moments a.k.a sleep over type-let's fix your hair and make-up thingy. So no spice girls attitude here ha! more of old school punk rockers these girls are. it's more of how even though each one of them is different from one another (how quirky and moody some of them are), they are one in their goal. this is true to its form of how every individual brings something up to the plate and contribute to make music, because they love music. no matter if they are breaking boundaries or ideologies or even each other to understand each of them better. more like knowing the notes and how the bass would sound with the guitar while the drum beats pulsing rhythms to the tune of their ultimate cover song of punk indie musicians "Linda Linda Linda". Halfway through the film, the song gets stuck to everyone's head (specially mine haha) and even though it's in Japanese, you'd be banging your head and raising your fist forming horns shouting "rock on!" okay, i really miss going to the gigs... and this one made me remember what it feels like and sounds like being in one :D

and as a note: them girls reminds me some of our home grown female rockers here^^ may kamukha... hehe

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so here's the first part of the movie-watching happenings since June of this year. which happens to be my so-called gagong palaboy long standing blog entry. more of backlogs hehe. okay time to post this first :D

next...

soundtrack: Bagsakan Parokya ni Edgar, Francis Magalona and Gloc 9

God gave
the gift of artists
so that people can dream
while they are awake

Steve Vai

devious artisan craft work by Indevisual.
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Steven "Steve" Siro Vai is an American instrumental rock guitarist, songwriter, vocalist, producer, and guitar virtuoso often regarded as one of the world's best shredders . After starting his professional career as a music transcriptionist for Frank Zappa. Vai would also record and tour in Zappa's backing band starting in 1980. The guitarist began a solo career starting in 1984 and has released 13 solo albums as of 2008. Apart from his work with Frank Zappa, Vai has also recorded and toured with numerous musical artists Alcatrazz, David Lee Roth and Whitesnake. Vai has been a regular touring member of the G3 Concert Tour which began in 1996. In 1999 Vai started his own record label Favored Nations "...artists that have attained the highest performance level on their chosen instruments."

pork&beans
weezer

They say
I need some Rogaine
To put in my hair
Work it out at the gym
To fit my underwear
Oakley makes the shades
That transform a tool
You'd hate
for the kids to think
That you lost your cool

I'mma do the things
That I wanna do
I ain't got a thing
To prove to you
I'll eat my candy
With the pork and beans
Excuse my manners
If I make a scene
I ain't gonna wear
The clothes that you like
I'm finally dandy
With the me inside
One look in the mirror
And I'm tickled pink
I don't give a hoot
About what you think

Everyone likes to dance
To a happy song
(Hey, hey)
With a catchy chorus and beat
So they can sing along
(Hey, hey)
Timbaland knows the way
To reach the top of the charts
Maybe if I work with him
I can perfect the art

I'mma do the things
That I wanna do
I ain't got a thing
To prove to you
I'll eat my candy
With the pork and beans
Excuse my manners
If I make a scene
I ain't gonna wear
The clothes that you like
I'm finally dandy
With the me inside
One look in the mirror
And I'm tickled pink
I don't give a hoot
About what you think

No I don't care
I don't care

I'mma do the things
That I wanna do
I ain't got a thing
To prove to you
I'll eat my candy
With the pork and beans
Excuse my manners
If I make a scene
I ain't gonna wear
The clothes that you like
I'm finally dandy
With the me inside
One look in the mirror
And I'm tickled pink
I don't give a hoot
About what you think
Totally different?

25


25 songs for the occassion
Wasted - L.P. / I Believe - peter searcy / Still Fighting It - ben folds five / I'm Yours - jason mraz / The Scientist - coldplay / Flowers On the Window - travis / Ironic - alanis morisette / Come As You Are - nirvana / I Feel So - boxcar racer / Paalam Sampaguita -yano / Tindahan ni Aling Nena - eraserheads / Awit ng Kabataan -rivermaya / Youth - matisyahu / Buses and Trains - bachelor girl / Akala - parokya ni edgar / Here, There, Everywhere -the beatles / Pieces - Sum41/ Champagne Supernova -oasis / The World That I Know - collective soul / Losing My Religion - r.e.m. / Everyday People - arrested development / Good Intentions - toad the wet sprocket / Basketcase - greenday / Lose Yourself - eminem / Firestarter - the prodigy


i am the gagong palaboy. 25 years old. this is my rank (salutes with the middle finger). and this is my position (shows right hand with a raised middle finger upfront). if you have a problem with that, then it's not my problem...it's yours. so go fucking solve it yourself. bwahahaha

"Let's see how far we've gone..." i heard Matchbox twenty screaming to my ears. let's see... it's been quite a hell of a journey, but i managed. they managed. they made me listen. they made me follow. and then, i figured that defiance is the reality of listening and following. and asking questions will expand one's perspective about the world that we live in. i was so sure and comfortable of everything that i know of, only to find out everything is not quite what it/they seem. i held on to my own principles and beliefs, only to swallow back everything that i said, did, been doing, and will be doing. and i have to break everything... both physically, mentally, and emotionally. i have to learn to say "no" , "goodbye" and lose a tear or two, to everything that i don't want to lose. everything that needed to be set free. i have to cross both heaven and hell, the gray areas in between, gain wings and lose horns, gain horns and lose wings...just to know how to look for me, amidst all the noise and confusions. and i'm still looking. as everyone does. every once in awhile, a hand or two will be offered to me. and so would i. sometimes, i offer me. every once in awhile, i wanted to see everyone smile. a sincere smile. sometimes i am a success; sometimes i am a failure. most of the times, i'm both. so i go back to step one and figure it all out again. i was brought up not to be a quitter. and i learned in the long run, that sometimes, quitting can become an ally. faith told me lying is bad. faith taught me how to become a liar. trust and honesty were reduced to words to be thrown around like paper post its, only to be forgotten altogether but posted anyhow until it was remembered. "it's bad to wear your heart on your sleeve", they told me. but it's all i got left when my brain can't take it anymore. "always use your head", they told me. but it does feel empty when the heart stops beating or just bleed itself 'til it reaches its bursting point.

i believe some would agree. and some would not.
free will. but is there really any? all it takes to end all choices is – a decision. and every decision has its own pros and cons. the truth? are you willing...or rather, brave enough to know the truth? there are only five questions: the what?, the why?, the how?, the when?, and the where? miscommunication happens when one shuts down or suddenly fails to listen. relationships falter when one becomes divided into two and then subtracted from each other leaving the other left standing and the other disappearing into thin air. life is not fool-proof. chances and instances makes surprise appearances. along the highway we'll encounter a ditch or a fork: left, middle, or right...some without anything but a wall or a big gaping chasm. i've cut and bruise myself (broken a few bones too), scarring myself for life. that's what life's greatest teacher taught me. experience the moment. etch it deeper through the skin. these were my marks.


i've met people. i love them all. different people. some same as me. some far more different from who i am. there are angels and demons. there are heroes and heroines. there are winners and losers. champion and challengers. leaders and followers. fighters and lovers. solo act and team. sorcerers and pranksters. genius and the not so genius. there are bricks, and sure there are a lot of pricks. some are enemies. some are allies. there were some that are basically two-faced. the world is full of criminals and mobsters. i've been one of them. one of those pieces in a puzzle. a sinner and a saint. beloved. hated. i thanked them all. i love them all. even those whose face are hidden by their masks.


we're all travelers. we all have our own expeditions to undertake. i have taken mine without realizing that i'm doing it. at 25, this is the farthest that i came to slack around, open a bottle of mixed vodka and savor the moment.

for now.
we'll see...