soundtrack: put a penny in a slot by fionn regan

TODAY...is monday

it was an ordinary day. i think. but then most of the things that i have thought of are but a product of a "lucky guess" technique. and the results vary according to what situations it happened to fall on to. the answers differ everytime. Action and reaction are equal and opposite. as gertrude stein puts it. very logical. simple but hard to grasp.



i lost my ever dependable flipflop type of wallet (nay, i don't really fancy carrying a purse so there). lost it along the way. as i was going home. early. i do believe that i dropped it (my bag's zipper is open). i can't also give away the fact that maybe there is someone out there who needed it most than i do (so okay, may what that person find be of help). i believe its not really that much. but its okay. the only thing that really bothers me is the fact that i have to deal with all the hassles. all the stress of allotting time from my short and fast paced evironmental activity just to spend lining up and accomplishing forms, answer "duh" questions, and waiting for like an eternity just to get back what was lost. i was hoping it'd be found though (my wallet). don't really care if there is some moolah still, as long as other things that doesn't really concern finances are there. but anyway, the damage's done. so there.



what pisses me off really is how the "customer service" providers out there are not really customer service oriented people. i am a customer. but where's the service? i don't know really. they just told me it's the peak hours. busy time of the day. (in my head: someone's swiping my credit card over a pair of newly bought chair massager while i hang on to the phone on my now red ears and mimicking the record playing "our operators are busy at the moment. dial any number to leave a message or stay on the line.) funny peak hours. if this is a hospital, the victim would've died and the doctor is still stuck in the goddamn traffic while the nurses were telling everybody that it's the peak hours. now that's some kind of service. (they should have that special treat to give away whenever they pissed off somebody with their "service".) and i was just referring to a bank. BPI to be exact. lots of money to splash. but none to provide good quality service to it's customers. kinda like: when the going gets tough...they all start running the other way. pussies.


and hey, i like this free CD that i got on a mag that i bought in a thrift shop yesterday^^ my gift to myself hehe. nice music you see. cool compilation. sampler. 21 singles from various music artists. keeps my mood somber. lack of training and drinking. my beerbelly's getting bigger. damn. still recovering and rehabilitating my injury. i'll walk again. i'll run again. i'll jump again. this is me defying my odds. hehehe

wicked.

and the movie rocks and packs with lots of visual flair that sure to makes you want to stare wide-eyed with awe, squirm (that is... if you're really not the bloodsport type of person), and experience a dreadful misery of you wanting to grab hold of a gun and point it at anyone who dared push you to your "goody two shoes" limit everytime there's that sudden HULK-like tantrum surprise emerges. oh well... read on:

Wesley Gibson (James McAvoy) is a neurotic accounts manager who works in a small cubical filling out billing reports day in and day out. He allows his boss, his girlfriend, and his best friend to walk all over him. To cope with his life, he takes anti-anxiety pills by the bottle full. Wesley has no desire to change his humdrum life, but one day while getting more pills at the drug store, he meets a beautiful woman, Fox (Angelina Jolie), who changes his life forever. Fox was sent to protect Wesley from the man who had just killed his father. Fox tells Wesley that his father died yesterday on the rooftop of the Metropolitan Building and that he will be next. Wesley is recruited into the "Fraternity," a secret society of assassins that his father was a member. Fox must train Wesley to bring out his special powers that he was born with in order to avenge his fathers death. The Fraternity's leader, Sloan (Morgan Freeman), also teaches Wesley the ways of the group, and Wesley soon becomes an assassin just like his father.
-courtesy of imdb.com

i really don't know, if there is at one time in the movie that got me bored. the director Timur Bekmambetov of the Russian blockbuster film "Nighwatch" and "Daylight" knows his turf when it comes to an action packed story telling. he mastered the action sequence enough that it can be safely called "dangerously cool" (insert me smiley with shades here snickering hehe). And hey, that guy with his rodent friends look very familiar^^ okay...if you're really suddenly wishing that i should stop writing about the movie based on motion visual aesthetics, i will right now. because it's not really how everything looked as it goes, it's all about how the story just wrecks your head just like the main character of the movie (Wesley Gibson played by James McAvoy) have to go through. uhmmm, he had 6 weeks; as a movie-goer...it just took me 2 hours or so to sit through the whole film and literally take part as the story unfolds. Angelina Jolie is a distraction. need i say more? and the music?...KICK-ASS!




take control of your life.






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i didn't have any plan for the day. (like i am good when it comes to planning? harhar) it's just gonna be a very quiet nursing a sprain kind of day (hay injured palaboy taking a break off the street roaming activity). and i retired to reading piles of magazine stacked neatly on my desk with the radio blasting off the hits of the 90s. or so i think 'til i got a text: "let's watch WANTED." (thought bubble: i am wanted!) i texted back: "game."

we're locked and loaded.
and we got the red hot porsche running, flying and tumbling through the streets that night.
hmmm... kinda like freerunning on wheels hehe (i'm missing it so bad)

"Let me listen to me and not to them." -Gertrude Stein


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there's a cool picture inside my head. it's a vision i wouldn't regret having nonetheless. shhhh... somebody is in peaceful slumbers. smiling. beautiful. it's a memory from long ago. in a galaxy far, far away. the sun is shining bright. the birds were chirping joyfully. my world class hug (according to dead poets and philosophers of the olden days) is all that i can give in that momentary vision. and it was a blast. leaving me with a smile on my face. the moment that stretched beyond self-built walls. the moment that will last all lifetimes to come. a moment in memories.

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there are times that i hurt those whom i care for. there are times that i do know it's my fault. most of the times... i don't have any idea about the whole issue. hey look! God put a lighted signage on my forehead. and it's blinking "Don't Trust Me" like a freaking traffic light when it's broken. oh well. whatever makes you all happy. it's your business not mine. i was not a snitch.but they say i am. when i said bullshit, they said "amen". i am a liar. and they say i'm just full of crap; nothing to worry about. but when i am truth, they said i am one big pack of lies. so who would i believe now... myself or them?




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secret tuesdays. dirty laundry being thrown to out to be washed (i hope). skeletons walking out of the closet. (someone invited them to a party) the day i lend my ears to listen to the general public. a significant day. a very significant day. once.
mellowtouch 94.7 secret tuesdays.
where all the chismax are voiced out. funny. sarcastic. sad. bad. naughty. witty. intriguing. shocking. inspiring. impossible? you say... pretty much what happens when lights were off and the doors are closed. bwahahahaha ------
"Nobody said it was easy, Oh it's such a shame for us to part. Nobody said it was easy, No one ever said it would be so hard. I'm goin' back to the start." - The Scientist/Coldplay

And because it's raining so damn hard...this made sense:


She never slows down.
She doesn't know why but she knows that when she's all alone, feels like its all coming down
She won't turn around
The shadows are long and she fears if she cries that first tear, the tears will not stop raining down

[CHORUS]
So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it's all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won't drown
And one day, whats lost can be found
You stand in the rain

She won't make a sound
Alone in this fight with herself and the fears whispering if she stands she'll fall down
She wants to be found
The only way out is through everything she's running from wants to give up and lie down.

[CHORUS]
So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it's all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won't drown
And one day, whats lost can be found
You stand in the rain

So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it's all crashing down
Stand through the pain
You won't drown
And one day, whats lost can be found

[CHORUS]
So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it's all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won't drown
And one day, whats lost can be found
You stand in the rain


Stand In The Rain
by Superchick